FAILING TO FAIL!
Joseph Brann
I don’t have ANY idea how to control my dreams while sleeping, but it's interesting to me how they've recently changed and’ve left me wondering again, what's the deal with dreams? I know I’ve talked about dream issues before here, but this post’s a little different. I recently started taking more pain medicine but’ve also begun taking a new sleeping medicine which, after I’d started taking it, I found out doubles as an antidepressant. I’ve had A TON of trouble sleeping over the past 20 years but am finally sleeping better and am really relaxed. My dreams are pretty much NEVER good things happening and are reminders of the struggles I go through.
That might be because I believe I’ve been told by doctors that the areas, yes plural, of my brain which’ve been damaged are some of the areas that somehow control sleep as well as the ones which make it so I would normally be angry and depressed, but, even before taking the new sleeping pill, I’ve pretty much overcome my depression for the most part. I also know because of what’s happened to me, I “should be” angry, in part because A LOT of my abilities I used to love before my brain issues are no longer present. For over 20 years, whenever I’ve dreamed I was in a physical fight with someone, I’ve never really been able to move in the dreams and would therefore be beat up. Over the last week, I’ve only had two dreams I currently remember and in each one I was in a fight. The first I fought multiple people and in the second I only fought one. In these dreams, not only could I finally fight back, but I defended myself even better than I did in my multiple fights before my wreck and I actually beat the people I was fighting and defending myself against very, very bad. I know, it' was just a dream, ha! I REALLY don’t like fighting and was raised to NEVER start a fight, and I NEVER have.
But growing up I was in multiple fights, either defending myself or others and I ALWAYS won. In those real fights, I was only punched once and it was while I was fighting multiple guys who started the fight. I was dealing with one of the guys, but another came up from behind and punched me in the back. I then stopped fighting the guy I was, turned around, and handled the guy who punched me in the back. Even in my dreams, whether I’m winning the fight untouched or am unable to move, I REALLY don’t like to fight and only do it if it’s ABSOLUTELY necessary. Please, if YOU can avoid them, avoid fights with others and ALWAYS do your best to be happy and not fight? Also, please NEVER start a fight, of words or touch! YOU’ll be MUCH happier! Until reading my next blog and even after, remember keep FAILING TO FAIL!